So this is how I have been feeling lately. And I really hate the fact that the people around you doesn’t seem to be bothered. To my surprise, those women who experienced the exact same situation says, ” oh! Pregnancy… I used to do this I used to be really active.” I mean hello !!!! What do you mean to say all this rubbish in front of a woman who can barely walk or stand due to pregnancy pelvic girdle pain.
I am not mean. In fact, I’m very generous and kind to the people. But these days I just hate unwanted guests. Why ….. WhY do I have to get up and sit down in front of them after running around my toddler all day long. Then I have to ask for tea and food.. Not for just one day … its bloody every other day. I’m exhausted man !!! Out of breath.
Don’t ask about sleep. The moment I’m in deep sleep my toddler wakes me up. Then I have to go wee. Then I feel thirsty. Then I can’t turn to other side and stuck. Then I have a leg cramp. Then my baby decide to get in some weird kind of position that hurt like hell.
Husband .. feels like I should go somewhere and bang my head to the wall… He is acting like an ar*e. Excuse me ! You are suppose to ask me if I need anything or if I’m feeling alright. Instead of watching stupid scary movies and playing stupid games on you phone. It’s your kid as well . Why is it just me waddling around ??
And the aunty who says.. dear I hope Allah will definitely give you a son this time. Thank you so much !! First of all you are a woman. So be proud of yourself. My first daughter means the world to me. I am ready to have anything and im not bothered about gender. My kids will be my kids whether they all are girls or boys. For your kind information. I have not found out the gender this time as well.
I always mention in most of my posts. Time flies. I still remember the day when z was born. Now she is 15 months walking and talking. Getting independent day by day. Doesn’t know that after 6 months her new baby sibling will join too.
Today I had my first scan. And the feelings I had this time is same as I had with Z. It’s so strange of how much love I have in my heart for my second one already. It’s unbelievable. I used to think it must be hard for mums to love all the kids likewise. Now I experienced how true it is that God put so much love in your heart when you become a mum.
With all this love and excitement, I have some concerns as well.
How I am gonna give attention to both??
How they both gonna sleep? (Sharing house with parents. Both kids gonna sleep in one room)
What If my toddler feel jealous or think I am a bad mum?
How much laundry I will be doing?
Will I become a boogie woman? Who stink of dribble and vomits..
How on earth women with kids get time to do all the make up with fake lashes on as well?
Would I be able to sleep?
Am I being overly conscious?
I’m not very good at handling too many things together and I looked after my first one the perfect way. The time she sleeps is the time no body is allowed to make noise. Her nap time and meal times are fixed. She has proper routine. How do second time mums make routine in circumstances like mine. When u have to share room with both of your kids.
I hope my worries will go in few months or these are just my hormones that making me anxious.
Please leave your feedback and let me know if someone is in the same boat.
I still remember the day I was sitting with my husband and I said .. would I be able to become a mother once. He replied, “whatever Allah wills” and he said there is always a time for something to happen. We are no one to decide and plan it. What we can only do is pray and believe in our prayers.
That was the time when I was battling with my pcos. I had several cysts in my ovaries and hormonal cycles were totally out of chart. Every month I used to get late periods . And I always imagined may be it’s time I’m pregnant. May be I missed my periods because I conceived. It was so disappointing when those tests came back negative. My body weight was increasing. I had scans and checks . Everything that I could do.
I finally conceived naturally in January 2015 and blessed with a baby girl in September. I was over the moon when I found I was pregnant. I took nearly 12 tests and it was so hard to believe. Now, my little girl is 14 months old and I’m expecting again. I didn’t even know till last week. It was a shock. I thought it took me 3 years to conceive my first. I won’t be able to conceive that soon. But Allah is the best of planners. He gave me this blessing without me even trying or asking. I feel truly blessed.
I have been thinking about getting her ear pierce from quite long. Been told by so many people that it’s not the right time. She is too young, you should wait , it will not be her choice and this and that.
Two weeks ago, I took her to Claire’s and got her ears done. To my surprise, it went really good. She cried for like 20 or 30 seconds and the next minute she was laughing and playing. The ear piercer told me that it will take about 3 weeks to heal. But her ear was healed in 3 days. The picture that I put here is the second day of her piercing.
When I was 9 months my mum got my ears done and I never regret that my entire life. I still remember when I had my ears with beautiful studs where other friends used to just see and always been wanting same studs like mine. I don’t remember any kind of pain. And I really really appreciate my mum’s choice to got my ears done that early.
I was given a after care solution which I have to use for 3 weeks and I just dab a cotton in it and slowly pat it on her ear lobe once or twice a day when she is sleeping. I rotate the butterfly lock from behind once or twice a day as well. Ears are healed but I’m still doing it.
The whole ear piercing cost me 40 pounds at Claire’s. The stud she is wearing is 9 carat gold. There are other places where it could be done cheaper. But I was not really keen to go there.
The piercer told me that I can change the stud after 3 months of piercing but I will keep it as they are really cute. And I’m going to buy her 24 carat when she gets bigger. InshAllah.
After a long day, shopping, cooking, feeding, changing, nursing or what not. My little girl gone to sleep. I can’t keep my eyes open and need to change to my pajamas, brush my teeth and drink some water. But here I am, scrolling down my phone. Being nosy on instagram.
It’s been 10 months now. I have been doing this. Not same thing all the time but this me time is a very special time for my sanity. I don’t want to get up from bed and just want to sleep like the way I am. But what is this telling me to get up and wash my face and brush my teeth and change??
Sometime i think what a great life babies have. They fed, changed, sleep and entertained. When I put my daughter to sleep, she takes good 30 minutes to drift off. If I am offered by this opportunity I will grab it in a second. Now, I just closed my eyes and went in my dream seeing the stupidest things one can imagine. Time to get up…
If you are in the same boat tell me what do you do in your “me time”.
It’s been really really long that I have not written anything.
I am not a professional blogger and I don’t write to earn. Blogging just gives me a way to express myself and keep the moments and experience locked in words where I can come and read whenever I want.
I checked my stats and views from last week and I’m quite suprised to know, with this little content my blog has been viewed regularly. Thanks a lot for all of those who are reading.
My baby girl is 9.5 months now. Growing and learning very quickly. Life is so beautiful with her and I can’t keep my eyes off her. I’m truly blessed alhumdulillah.
Our weaning journey is also going pretty good. But she still doesn’t have any teeth yet. So madam been bit moody sometimes because of her swollen gums.
Life is going like a roller coaster. Sometimes I can’t get hold of it and I think I am missing out on a lot of things. Having baby is a full time job. Sometimes you don’t even get a break.newd some motivation to write again
Hope will get really good stuff to write about in coming days .
Caution; this post is going to be completely rude and you will find a lot of poop talks.
This is for those who don’t even care about what they leave behind for others to see.
Everytime I go to the public toilets, those people who are really confident to show their poop always drive me crazy. I mean why the heck ?
Well toddler need potty training. Shall I ask government to design adult potty training as well?
When I got married and start living with my husband. The first shock I had was when I saw his toilet. I was like
That was the first time I realised that marriage is about cleaning shit as well. A reminder for all of those girls who are going to be married soon. Your husband is going to fart in the same blanket as well. So prepare your mind for all that business.
Some people think that I have OCD. They told me toilets are all about smell, pee and poo. I dont really think so. Actually, if keeping the toilet clean and sparkling comes under ocd than yes I have ocd.
On a serious note, it’s really not nice when you go toilet and see that stuff. For a person like me would never tolerate that. If someone leave skid marks in the toilet and I see them leaving confidently. I just have a really dirty image of them in my mind. It spreads diseases as well. So please keep it clean.