So this is how I have been feeling lately. And I really hate the fact that the people around you doesn’t seem to be bothered. To my surprise, those women who experienced the exact same situation says, ” oh! Pregnancy… I used to do this I used to be really active.” I mean hello !!!! What do you mean to say all this rubbish in front of a woman who can barely walk or stand due to pregnancy pelvic girdle pain.
I am not mean. In fact, I’m very generous and kind to the people. But these days I just hate unwanted guests. Why ….. WhY do I have to get up and sit down in front of them after running around my toddler all day long. Then I have to ask for tea and food.. Not for just one day … its bloody every other day. I’m exhausted man !!! Out of breath.
Don’t ask about sleep. The moment I’m in deep sleep my toddler wakes me up. Then I have to go wee. Then I feel thirsty. Then I can’t turn to other side and stuck. Then I have a leg cramp. Then my baby decide to get in some weird kind of position that hurt like hell.
Husband .. feels like I should go somewhere and bang my head to the wall… He is acting like an ar*e. Excuse me ! You are suppose to ask me if I need anything or if I’m feeling alright. Instead of watching stupid scary movies and playing stupid games on you phone. It’s your kid as well . Why is it just me waddling around ??
And the aunty who says.. dear I hope Allah will definitely give you a son this time. Thank you so much !! First of all you are a woman. So be proud of yourself. My first daughter means the world to me. I am ready to have anything and im not bothered about gender. My kids will be my kids whether they all are girls or boys. For your kind information. I have not found out the gender this time as well.
Rant over !!!!
I always mention in most of my posts. Time flies. I still remember the day when z was born. Now she is 15 months walking and talking. Getting independent day by day. Doesn’t know that after 6 months her new baby sibling will join too.
Today I had my first scan. And the feelings I had this time is same as I had with Z. It’s so strange of how much love I have in my heart for my second one already. It’s unbelievable. I used to think it must be hard for mums to love all the kids likewise. Now I experienced how true it is that God put so much love in your heart when you become a mum.
With all this love and excitement, I have some concerns as well.
How I am gonna give attention to both??
How they both gonna sleep? (Sharing house with parents. Both kids gonna sleep in one room)
What If my toddler feel jealous or think I am a bad mum?
How much laundry I will be doing?
Will I become a boogie woman? Who stink of dribble and vomits..
How on earth women with kids get time to do all the make up with fake lashes on as well?
Would I be able to sleep?
Am I being overly conscious?
I’m not very good at handling too many things together and I looked after my first one the perfect way. The time she sleeps is the time no body is allowed to make noise. Her nap time and meal times are fixed. She has proper routine. How do second time mums make routine in circumstances like mine. When u have to share room with both of your kids.
I hope my worries will go in few months or these are just my hormones that making me anxious.
Please leave your feedback and let me know if someone is in the same boat.
I still remember the day I was sitting with my husband and I said .. would I be able to become a mother once. He replied, “whatever Allah wills” and he said there is always a time for something to happen. We are no one to decide and plan it. What we can only do is pray and believe in our prayers.
That was the time when I was battling with my pcos. I had several cysts in my ovaries and hormonal cycles were totally out of chart. Every month I used to get late periods . And I always imagined may be it’s time I’m pregnant. May be I missed my periods because I conceived. It was so disappointing when those tests came back negative. My body weight was increasing. I had scans and checks . Everything that I could do.
I finally conceived naturally in January 2015 and blessed with a baby girl in September. I was over the moon when I found I was pregnant. I took nearly 12 tests and it was so hard to believe. Now, my little girl is 14 months old and I’m expecting again. I didn’t even know till last week. It was a shock. I thought it took me 3 years to conceive my first. I won’t be able to conceive that soon. But Allah is the best of planners. He gave me this blessing without me even trying or asking. I feel truly blessed.